shazamom

Its been 2 weeks since i held you tighly in my arms and kissed you as you took your last breath. Im so glad we had our sleepover together the night before and i got to cuddle you, i just wished that i could have taken the cancer from you, if i could have given you some years of my life for you i would have, as God witnessed i prayed so hard for that. I ma trying so hard to be happy for Charley (our 3 yr old girl) and your "treat giver" and she knows that you were sick in has gone to heaven and thats why mummy's sad. I am taking Angus (the collie) out for longer walks and trying to help him get over losing is best friend. You were there for me Eddie through the hardest years of my life (you knew me and everything that went on in my life) if it hadn't been for you giving me that look, getting me out of the house and looking after me - goodness knows where i would have been. I believe that i found you and that you were and Angel sent to look after me and bring back my faith and trust in people and just now when my life is going great - i have a nice home and loving, caring husband and a beautiful daughter that you were taken from me. It seems so unfair that when i am able to just enjoy life with you, you were taken away from me. I turn around to pet your big head or listen to hear you snore while you sleep and the silence kills me. I think that i will never be whole again and that you have a piece of my heart with you and this hole will always be there. I love you more than i can put into words baby......... i love you baby bully, love mummy xxx please be free now, run have fun and think of me often.

hershey

That's beautiful. It's been a little more than 2 weeks for us, and the emptiness is still there, and will always be. Hershey will be in our hearts forever. Just recently, I have seen him in the clouds. Maybe you'll see Eddie soon too. We're going to some local rescues tomorrow to see who needs adoption. The emptiness is so overwhelming. We need more furry friends here, but also, we're scared of goig through this pain again. Best wishes, stay strong for your husband and daughter, and collie

SCanuk

I have been so fortunate to have had wonderful and loving dogs in my life. There is always the emptiness after one of our fur babies has passed on. Nothing can replace your baby, but there are so many unfortunate dogs that do need loving homes. You will know when the time is right. I have had to put down three fur babies in the past due to old age. They always let you know it seems when they want to be let go and free of pain. Each one is so different with their unconditional love and personalities. There is the immense pain and emptiness of letting them go, but it is well worth the love and companionship that they give you in return.

I know when Kira's fight comes to an end that I eventually will be adding another family member that needs a good and loving home. Her brother Willy (a mixed rescue puppy) will be miss her terribly. We joke that Willy was an accessory puppy (playmate) for Kira as she was terribly depressed when we had to put her sister (Kristy) down four years ago. I have always had German Shepherd dogs but we decided instead to go to a rescue organization and get a puppy. We are so lucky to have him in our life - he has so much love to give. There are so many rescue organizations - even with the breed that you love, there is a dog desperately needing a home and your love.

It is good that you continue on this site as I believe it helps in the grieving process. I give you and your family a huge hug. Nothing can replace your big Eddie but you will always have the love in your heart for him and the memories.

Kira's mom

Benpaws

My Dear Friend,
I am glad you came here to express your feelings of loneliness and emptiness now that Ed has gone from this earth but NEVER from your heart. Others before me have expressed everything so well and I will just add a bit more.

I totally understand that Eddie came into your life when things were not going well for you and he was there by your side to comfort and heal your heart. That is very similar to my story when Benny came into my life. I was depressed and our home was so empty after losing Willie and then my husband gave me Benny for our 35th wedding anniversary. Benny never left my side when things were "dark" and seemingly hopeless. He lay outside my door and I could hear his "puppy sighs." He was my comfort when I felt alone and my joy when I felt sad. He protected my heart and gave me hope."

I too rallied and life was good again and every day with Benny brought new promise and positive happenings and then he got cancer. He was only 6. My world fell apart when he died and I miss him every day.

However, I think these beautiful dogs came to share our lives when there was deep need for us to have them and for some reason God chose to take them back again far too soon for us.

Benny made such a difference in all our lives. He made us stop and see the tiniest bugs which his nose would follow down the pavement; the showed us how much fun it was to climb rocks and then run into the cold lake and shiver, to chase squirrel up a tree, watch a robin in the grass and then run towards it seeing it take flight. He was our sun on a rainy day, our moon on a cloudy night, the waves in the water, the snowflakes on the ground, the brightest star on a clear winter's night. He will always have a piece of my heart just as Eddie has a piece of yours. Indeed you will be WHOLE again. Eddie brought you through darkness into light and he would want you to smile and remember all the good times which you shared.

It will take time for your heart to recover from this great loss and your Collie Angus can help you through this pain. You owe it to Eddie to smile and enjoy life because he SMILED every day for you! Angus misses him too and he could use a smile.....long walks are good.

They say that "Everything happens for a reason." I guess someday we will all know the reason why we lost our precious companions to cancer and it was out of our hands to do anything to save them.

God bless you as you travel this journey without Eddie, but know that he is always with you. Look up into the sky and you'll see Eddie one day in the clouds. He will be YOUR BRIGHTEST STAR on a clear night. Take care of yourself and your baby girl and your loving husband. Eddie wants you all to be happy.

Blessings,
Joanne & Shadow





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