08-04-2010, 08:46 AM
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Location: Oakville, ON., CANADA
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My Benny
I come here every day and have since I began in October 2008 and many of the stories are sad and remind me of my journey with Benny.After losing Benny I had to return to the one place where I knew I wold be welcome and I could cry and grieve and share and nobody would think I was crazy. Some of you have had good luck and for that I smile. I just had to write a poem today to let Benny know he is never out of my mind and always in my heart. I miss him so much! Hope you like it.
Blessings Joanne ALWAYS IN MY HEART
Dear Benny, I just finished reading all the posts on DCC And thoughts of those brief years with you Came flooding back to me. It’s summer now and how you loved To climb the jagged rocks Jump into the cold cold lakes And then shake the water off. While I cut the long green grass You lay beneath a tree And watched every move I made You were always outside with me. Sometimes a pesky little squirrel Would see you lying there, But not for long, you saw him too And leaped into the air, Almost catching that furry tail, But mostly it was fun To challenge the little critter, And joyfully you’d run. You’d grab the hose While I watered the yard, And sometimes I’d turn the hose on you You’d retreat for just a while But soon return and grab it again Beneath your beard, I saw that SMILE! I miss you very much each day, I look for you in the sky, Sometimes a cloud is shaped like you And I watch you drifting by. I cannot hold you anymore, And tell you of my love, But I look towards the heavens And imagine you up above, Running freely, chasing squirrels, Cooling off in lakes A thousand times I’ve wished you home Lying by the fire, Hearing those “puppy sighs” After a day that made you tired. But God took you away from me And far too soon dear boy, But thank you for the 6 short years When you gave me so much joy. You never left my side When I was feeling rather down, And the smile beneath your furry beard Never was a frown. I cannot hug a memory But wish I could hug YOU. You’ll always live inside of me MY forever Friend so true. Love you with all my heart, Mom August 4, 2010 Last edited by Benpaws; 08-04-2010 at 08:50 AM. |
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08-04-2010, 12:09 PM
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Location: Philadelphia, PA
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Joanne, this is amazingly beautiful and brought tears to my eyes as I read it. I, too, look towards the clouds every day since Hershey passed and just yesterday, for the first time, I thought I saw a cloud shaped like Hershey, with his perky ears and tail sticking straight up. I also though I saw the shape of another furry friend, who I did not know, right behind him, an dit looked like they were walking together, and maybe it was Benny! Maybe they met at Rainbow Bridge and have become friends! Thank you for being here and understanding. Some people have already asked me if I'm over this yet, after all, he was only a dog. I will never be over it, and it's so great to come here and communicate with others who understand. I am printing out your poem and putting it on the wall on top of where Hershey's bed used to be. Thank you.
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08-04-2010, 03:08 PM
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Dear Steve,
Now you are making me cry again. How lovely of you to say the things you have when your loss is so fresh and Hershey is still so much a part of every day and everything you do. I know how the first few weeks were after Benny left me. The house was empty, I felt numb, I heard only SILENCE, I stayed in bed longer and I cried more tears than raindrops have fallen. I never thought the pain would go away and it really hasn't gone away yet. Every night when I light my candle, Hershey is one of the puppies I pray for and remember and your words mean so much to me. Thank you. Every little kindness shown and said heals one's heart a little more each day. God Bless You! Keep looking up and you will see Hershey in many clouds and rainbows and flakes of snow and falling leaves. He was your sun and moon and stars and he will always be the brightest star on a dark night. Make a wish every time you see him. I know Benny is playing with him and smiling because he has a new little friend. Thank you again. Blessings and Hugs, Joanne |
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08-05-2010, 08:43 AM
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Thank you John. I hope your wonderful book is doing well. I have read it 3 times now and shared it with family and friends.It is such an excellent story for young children who have lost a beloved pet. I hope many people will buy it and enjoy it as I have.
Every morning I look into Shadow's dark black eyes and tell him how much I love him and I can see right into his little soul and my day begins! I know what you mean about getting on with life after the loss of such an important member of your family. I have definitely marked August 20th on my calendar. Blessings, Joanne & Shadow |
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08-08-2010, 08:44 AM
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Thank you Raymond. So are you and so is everyone here. I feel blessed to be part of such a truly compassionate and loving group of people. Every day that I come here, I feel a "connection" and know that somebody cares about me and how I feel.
I know Larry is never far from your thoughts. He and Benny are no doubt pals by now. You are a good friend.  Blessings, Joanne & Shadow |
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