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Old 04-02-2010, 05:55 AM   #1 (permalink)
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Well today marks the "first anniversary" of the death of our precious little schnauzer Benny who made such a difference in our lives during the 6 years that he lived with us. He taught us so many things and because of him we appreciated a simple walk where, like Benny, we stopped to look at the "blades of grass, the flowers, the droplets of rain, the flakes of snow, the waves crashing onto the beach." We will never forget you darling boy. My tears are less, but they still come when certain memories flash through my mind. A year ago at 12:25 pm you took your final breath and dad and I held you and I closed your eyelids over those amazing big, brown eyes and wept into your soft grey fur. It was the most difficult day. I have come to this place every day since and tried to comfort others who have taken and are taking the same journey as we did and it helps.
We love you Benny.

I wrote this poem for you Benny.

Remembering BENNY
I was thinking today of the difference you made by being in our family,
You filled our world with daily joy and a reason “just to BE.”
You woke to every sunrise with a smile on your bearded face,
And ran out into your spacious yard, enjoying squirrels to chase.
Every walk was an adventure climbing hills and rocks,
Wading into cold clear lakes, sending geese in soaring flocks.
You always had a smile and greeted everyone along the way,
Your puppy days were happy and we thought you’d always stay
With us and live and love and play and run.
But God had other plans for you and too soon the end would come.
What a terrible day when “cancer” came and broke our hearts in two,
Whatever would our lives be like if there was no longer YOU?
For all the months you fought the fight and bravely faced each day,
Continuing to chase the squirrels and with your toys did play,
But there were times you just lay down and rested by the fire,
We could see you getting slower and so quickly you would tire.
I loved to hear your “puppy sighs” when you fell into deep sleep
I’d sit beside your little bed and silently I’d “weep.”
You were still a little fur boy, 6 years old, so much left to give,
I could not imagine a life when my Benny didn’t live
Within our home and bring each day such joy into our hearts,
How could we ever say “goodbye” and with you ever part?
But that day came much sooner than we planned ,
We sat with you and kissed your fur, dad and I held hands.
The room was quiet, you drifted to sleep, I kissed your fur,
And together dad and I did weep.
This year has been so difficult without you in our home,
We tried to think of the good times, but we often felt alone.
Your scent was here, your basket of toys, your pictures in albums, remembering the joy,
You taught us to take one day at a time and live in the moment and see the sun shine.
We will never be quite the same without you dear friend,
You were one unique puppy right up to the end.
Every night our candles are lit and we pray that wherever you are, everything is okay.
Not a day goes by without thoughts of you,
We walk the trails you enjoyed and the parks that you knew.
We hold hands each night and remember just YOU.
Thank you for sharing your brief life with us,
And no matter how you felt, you made not a fuss,
You left this world with the same dignity
That you had when you joined David, Dad and me.
Your legacy lives on dear Benny in every day we live,
To have you back for one moment, anything we’d give,
But you are free from earthly pain and never will we regret
Knowing one small schnauzer, a truly amazing little pet!

Love Always, Mom, Dad & David

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July 15, 2002 – April 2nd, 2009
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Old 04-02-2010, 07:27 AM   #2 (permalink)
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How beautiful, Joanne! Wishing you a peaceful day!

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Old 04-02-2010, 10:21 AM   #3 (permalink)
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Dearest Joanne,

Your poetry honoring Benny is remarkable. My heart goes out to you this difficult day as tears run down my face knowing your deep sorrow. Life just isn't quite the same without our wonderful fur babies. I know how much I miss my Larry boy and know you miss Beeny too.

Thanks again for being here, sharing, supporting, giving so much.

Blessings to you and Jim this Easter. He is Risen.

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Old 04-02-2010, 12:39 PM   #4 (permalink)
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Dear Joanne, That was amazing poem. Benny was lucky to have the both of you as you of him. Hoping you and Jim have a Happy Easter.
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Old 04-03-2010, 06:47 AM   #5 (permalink)
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Joanne-This is one anniversary that no one wants to have, but you have made it through this year by helping countless others, including me, on our own sorrowful journeys . We can never repay you for setting aside your own grief by helping us and others new to this club that no one wants to join.

Benny was indeed lucky to have found a forever family with you and no matter how many years he lived, he had the best life every single day of them.

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Old 04-03-2010, 04:40 PM   #6 (permalink)
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Joanne:

We love you! Thank you for all your help, support and sympathy for all here and I am sure others too! You are the best!

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Old 04-05-2010, 11:43 AM   #7 (permalink)
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Thank you dear friends for such kind words. You are the BEST and I could not have gotten through the "cancer journey" without your comfort and support and friendship which I so VALUE!!

I just got back from Easter with our granddaughter and Shadow and we all shed our tears over Benny who grew up with Isabella ( our 7 year old granddaughter.) She misses him terribly but loves little Shadow. Life does go on after the PAIN, but the tears still come once in a while.

God Bless you ALL!

Hugs, Joanne
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Old 04-07-2010, 04:13 AM   #8 (permalink)
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Dear Joanne...

So beautiful...and yet so terribly sad. I hope we meet our best and dearest friends once more in Heaven. For surely God takes these beautiful animals home to live with Him - otherwise, why would He give them all the love they have to share with us?

God bless you and your family.
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Old 04-07-2010, 11:04 AM   #9 (permalink)
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Thank you Jan for your kind words. Yes, God does lend these marvelous puppies to us and without having a disease like cancer, their lives are all too short. They give us a reason to get up in the morning and to enjoy each moment of the day. They remain childlike throughout their lives, depending on us for all their needs, but giving SO MUCH BACK to us in return.

I pray that you will have Madison in your life for many years to come. You are doing everything right and after losing Raleigh and trusting your vet that there was nothing to worry about when there really was, this time will be much different.

I thought when our year with Benny was over, my tears would be over as well, but they are not. He was SO AMAZING and SO BRAVE and I can still feel his warm little face as I kissed him goodbye and it was over! I didn't think that "grief" could last so long. Our 38 year old son David with whom Benny shared his week-ends and enjoyed long walks and loved to climb rocks down to the beach cannot look at Benny's pictures even now and cannot read any of the poetry I have written.

My prayers will continue for you and Madison and all the others here who are fighting this "difficult battle" with their best friends. I know how heart-wrenching this journey is with all its twists and turns, valleys and hills, hopes and disappointments. I never want to go through it again.

I know in my heart that I will see Benny again.

Thank you.

Blessings, Joanne
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Old 04-11-2010, 04:10 AM   #10 (permalink)
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I lost Chelsea, a 13.5 yr old golden two years ago this June but it was to aging and failed kidneys. I still cry when looking at her many, many pictures and I still grieve for her. So, grieving for Benny is so normal. I've never lost a dog to cancer before and I will have a good while to think about the fact that Rex is very sick but none of that will lessen the grief if we lose him. They are just such treasures and I think we love them so much because they are innocent and pure of heart. God's most perfect creatures and truly our best friends. Have a great day, Mary Frances
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