i can't sleep, can't eat a bite. oh my god, thank you two so much...
the pain is unbearable right now. we had a get together and she was so happy to see all her favorite people tonight. Everyone was so sad, just heart-breaking.
Today, earlier, I actually wanted to take her, but my husband couldn't. He hoped she would turn around for the peeps, and she did. And went for a late night walk to the store where they love her and they fed her two packages of treats.
This is the hardest thing I have ever faced, so much pain.
Yet we have another border collie who will need us and a 19 month old laughing baby girl, both who may or may not understand this. Just so difficult.
The way she was this morning was hard to take. We gave her steroids and it took a few hours and she came around. But she is dying. We know that. I really saw it today...
I never knew so many tears could come, so often, and so many...
thanks again so much...
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